A lot of people like to talk about their interests. It's easy, so I think we'll start there. As far as hobbies go, I mostly do things I don't view as particularly productive. I enjoy knitting and crocheting, but since I sat on my new rosewood needles and snapped them a couple of weeks ago, I've lost the urge. I also enjoy drawing, although in my view I'm pretty damn bad at it. I thought I'd give it another stab, seeing as how it's been years since I've created anything, fine-art-wise. I like fiddling around on the computer, but certainly not in any technical sense. More like looking at pictures and daydreaming. I'm trying to spend less time stewing. It's going okay.
So let's get down to the Facebook nitty-gritty here. Religious Views: Wiccan. Political Views: Socialist. I'll elaborate. I'm not really a practicing Wiccan. By not really, I mean not at all. It's a bit unpractical for me, since I'm extremely messy and don't really want to create a space for rituals and such. I'm also essentially agnostic, but far less hard-line than I used to be. I believe in ghosts, even though I don't believe in them. My boyfriend laughs at me and tries to scare me. I'm fascinated with the occult, and the "creepier" aspects of Catholicism. I want to collect statues of Mary.
I need a new paragraph to talk about my political views. My high school English teachers would be disappointed. Anyway, I'm a "socialist". I say "socialist" and not just socialist, because this is another of my watered-down internet views. I can't really describe my political views in one word, but it seems the simplest shorthand. My political views are extremely important to me, and I hold them not just as views in the political sphere, but as values in my practical life. I'm a feminist (more on that in another post, likely). I believe in the eradication of class, although I contribute to that system. I believe you can't have your cake and eat it, too. There is no such thing as a fiscally conservative, socially liberal person. I despise Libertarianism. I can't stand wishy-washy.
Location: Indianapolis. I currently live on the East Side of Indianapolis, Indiana. My house is an improvement over the last place I lived. I was born at the Community South Hospital in Indianapolis on October 25, 1995. I lived with my Nana (paternal grandmother) and parents until I was 5. We moved to Fishers, a suburb north of Indianapolis. We lived in a one-story ranch house for a year. Then we moved to a huge house in Fishers when I was 6, and Nana moved in with us. My brother, Clayton, was born in 2003. My parents still live in that house today, although Nana has moved out. I moved out of my parents home when I was 18, to go to beauty school in Speedway (yes, that's where the Indy 500 is held). I lived there for a year, then moved to Fountain Square, a trendy neighborhood just southeast of downtown. I lived there for another year. I recently moved to the East Side. I live in a house now. It's not that different, but better.
I live with my boyfriend and two roommates. My boyfriend's name is Andrew and we've been together for 2 years. My roommates are Rain, whom I've lived with for a year, and Trent, my best friend's boyfriend. So far things are an improvement over the apartment in Fountain Square, which was above a music venue. A bad music venue that stood for all kinds of things I hated and played 5 shows a week. It almost drove me to death. I don't know if I'm lucky.
Education: ha. I went to beauty school in Speedway for a few months before dropping out. In high school, I attempted to drop out but ended up graduating a semester early at the insistence of my counselors. No one wants a "gifted and talented" student in their dropout statistics. I'm not good at finishing things. I don't know who I am.
I have a severe anxiety disorder which I've been carrying with me since I was 8. I've learned to live with it, but having panic attacks over small things isn't fun no matter how you play it. I worry about bigger things, obviously. My ultimate fear is failure, which has been realized over and over again. I know I see things as failures that are just first attempts. I'm working on it.
I'm working on it. I want to be better. I want to explore the things I love and see where life takes me. I'm horrible at being "go-with-the-flow". I want a plan and I can't plan my life. I promise I'm trying.
